I am often asked a question that I could easily answer but nobody would believe. A question that has haunted me for as long as I could remember. As you would continue reading this, you probably would think of me as an arrogant bastard who shows off the little of that he knows. But I know that we all have felt that sense of not having something that you would have probably had if it weren't for certain circumstances. I just wanted to share and to express this feeling that I have had for a long time in writing.
Music has always been an influential part of my life, and I do think it will remain that way ‘til my last breath. Every time I listen to it, especially the ones that I think sounds beautiful, I get a feeling of ecstasy that would flow through me. I could sometimes feel goosebumps develop on my arm and I would remain in that suspended reality until the end of the piece. It is like a drug to me. Often times I would repeat and repeat that piece by whistling, humming, and sometimes even singing(when listening to songs with lyrics) even long after the end of the piece. I have always had this deep passion for music since my first memories.
But the sad thing is I could never really consider myself as a musician. Sure, I can play the guitar fairly well, know a bit of piano, know the basic rhythm of the drums, can learn a song by ear, and whatnot. But all of that means nothing. I have just a very small idea with regards to the most basic theories surrounding the realm of music, I have tremendous difficulty when trying to read notes, and I only know the very basic of terms. I have always been frustrated from that fact even up to now.
